Holy crumb - July is almost over already!!  With the end of July comes the end of soccer season, which means the end of ball season is not very far behind.  This leaves me wondering what in the heck I am going to do with myself during the week.  

 

When my ex-husband and I separated last year my circle of friends became considerably smaller, as I had previously spent many hours each week with his sister and her best friend.  We had tried in the beginning to stay in contact, but with each unanswered email it became more and more clear that a prolonged friendship was simply not meant to be.  Don't get me wrong - this is certainly understandable as she and her brother are extremely close and I knew ahead of time that if sides were to be chosen that I would lose.  However, I was hoping that over a year and a half later, with both he and I in much happier places, combined with the fact that he is now engaged to somebody else that perhaps she would be willing to see things with fresh eyes and would be interested in catching up.  I wasn't expecting it to be like it was before, where we would spend hours together each week; I just thought a coffee here or there would be cool, but c'est la vie I guess...

 

I'm also finding it tough because so many of the female halves of couples I used to do things with now have little babies or are pregant and really not interested in hanging out during the week.  It is completely understandable as their priorities have shifted; it's just hard some days when it feels like I'm all alone during the week.  

 

I used to have my neighbour as a week day partner in crime, but he has recently moved his girlfriend here from another province and they weren't interested in getting together the first couple times I called after she moved so I figure I am just going to leave them be for now so they can nest and get adjusted to being in the same house instead of being hours apart and let them get into their own routine before I get too upset about them not being available to amuse me.

 

Holy cow, I just read over this entry and am I ever having a pity party tonight - geesh!!!  I think I am being such a baby because having M live two hours away and only seeing him on the weekends is now much harder on me than it was in the beginning.  Initially it was nice having my own space during the week and having something to look forward to on Friday afternoon, but as time goes by it is getting more and more difficult to be apart.  Oh well, it will happen when it happens, I guess...

 

That's it, enough of my whining - have a great week everbody.